Dan kenangan kami tiga.... Di hari jadi yang ke 16, Nur Amirah Bte Roslan... Walaupun kami bertiga kadang kala dulu ade persilihan faham dan pergaduhan dalam tidak kira perangai, perubahan atau persalah fahaman, kami tetap akan bersama. Dan saya rindu kan kamu!! Terima kasih buat selama ini kerana "supporting me always"... I love you gal...

Mereka berdua tidak tahu telah hilang kemana... sudah lama tidak berjumpa... Maka tidak ku peduli, kerana tali persahabatan kami tetap terus ada... Masih kuat hingga sekarang.. Minta maaf kalau ku tidak selalu dapat bertemu dengan kamu semua... Sedih dan hampa dan bersalah ku rasa... Tetapi bulan yang mulia ini, kami akan jumpa sekali lagi.. Jangan risau.. Ku tidak akan lupakan kamu semua.... Dan jugak Sitti jugak.. Sudah lama tidak berjumpa tetapi semalam kami baru jumpa...

Maria dan Namirah... Dan jugak Janny.. Walaupun maria tidak berkerja lagi di sini, kamu selalu diingati.. Tetapi ku harap perangai mu akan berubah di bulan yang mulia ini.. Itu sahaja yang ku minta.. Kerana ku dapat menerima mu sebagai sahabatku kerana for who you really are, not for what you've become.

Our recent fight that broke us off was my mistake not telling you earlier about zren chatting with me. I know we had promised each other not to keep any secrets.. And we had a misunderstanding the other night and i know you were just jealous. Please friends around me.... Dun misjudge him again? He is trying his best to take good care of me and trying to change... please give him a chance like i did. He's pressurize by you guys not accepting him.. He seriously care for me.. Here's a little story i want to share with u people... what happened yesterday...

After having the awful fight over the phone around 3plus in the morning.. I can't sleep.. Keep thinking of what he said.. "You've already lost me, Zamarina". And crying and crying... till fall asleep...

The next day, woke up and went online. Suddenly, he was online. He said jangan macam paham lah... bla bla bla.. and the argument goes on and on... until this one part of the conversation dat really pissed me off..

him: arh! lazy to type oreadi. gtg, going to meet someone.
me: what? giving up oreadi?
him: nope. ouh yar, im meeting a girl. And im going to let her meet my mum next week.
him:whens ur turn?
me: ouhic.. so all this things happen because u got a new gal lah nie?
him: dun blame others lah!
him: its because of you!
me: huh? me? what did i do this time???
him: happy findin the answer..
me: TELL ME LAH!
him: bye reena
*and he appears offline..*

woah... see what i was facing with yesterday afternoon..
and so, i got the feeling to called Sitti instead. I dun want to disturb KGC. One of them already scolded me and blaming me for not hearing their advices.. Yelah2.. Selalu je lah kau yang betul, aku yang salah..

And i called Sitti telling her the whole story.. She accompanied me to see the doctor... Thankiuk so much! & the doctor said that.... im bleeding to death... haiz.... The "D" word is already scaring me... And i need to undergo some bloodtest and evacuation which cost around $500. Where to get that some of money?? Tell me!!

And so, i got this feeling to go to Vivo instead to ask help from my supervisor.. So we took 963 to Vivo. When we reached there, my supervisor wasn't there. I think she's breaking her fast.. So me and Sitti just sat outside Long John. Oh yar, before that, me and Sitti break our fast at this coffee shop in Clementi. And then, we went to meet my supervisor who went for smoke break. Then we go inside the outlet and ordered Cheeze Choc. Yummy!! haha.. my treat... and yes, after that, we went off.. While walking out from there, few metres away from the outlet, Sitti suddenly said to me, "Eh, asal tu jantan tgk kau semacam sak??" And when i turn to look at the direction.. I saw HIM(fazlee) walking pass me very close, almost want to hit my shoulder...

And Sitti was like " itu dia???!?!!? Aku fikir sape sak tadi tgk org macam ade hal gitu"... And we tailed their back. They were buying cake at SR. So we waited for them outside. Coz i seriously need to talk to him. Then after that, he stand really close to me like we didn't fight earlier this afternoon. Thanks to Sitti for backing me up coz i was already traumatized and pressurised by the doctor's words...

So we head to the stair which lead to the rooftop there. We seated at the steps and talk... He's willing to pay the cost of the evacuation.. I explained to them what the doctor said to me.. And then... it happen...

I started to have Hyperventaliation. Because of thinking too much. Sitti knows what to do if this attacks happen to me.. She's used to it.. And so do Fazlee.. And i fainted in Fazlee's arms. That's what i remember.. After that, i suddenly woke up from nowhere and feeling giddy and shivering..He hold me tight and gave his jacket and hug me. And said some prayers and wipe my face 3 times which the water that he had said prayers on.

And seriously, he's taking care of me.. we are in this together.. So we have to pay the evacuation fees together.. Please dun think he's irresponsible.. Im a part to blame too okay.. He's really a nice guy once you already talk to him face to face.. but u girls didn't ryte? Sitti has already hangout with him and she gave me the positive comment.

& please.. dun ever talk to me about friendship.. I know lah u so gud enough to think this and that and say bestfriends help each other tu sume and share problems.. but hey, im not giving any reasons saying that u gals are busy with O levels. But im just typical minded dun wan to disturb u girls.. i may not raise my voice just now over the phone but please... i just can't take it anymore.. its adding to the pressure..

If you think your solutions are always right, then think again.. coz solutions and certain advices are just plain useless to use sometimes coz it doesnt work... dun think your always right.. I can't handle dis anymore.. I've been patient and quiet for a long long time... but this is JUST TOOO MUCH!!

I've just gone through the Evacuation oreadi and feeling terribly weak.. Please dun make me suffer more.. U guys have ur own things and life to suffer on.. and sooner or later, if i were to have hyper attacks, thanks alot for not able to be there when you are needed but instead trying to raise voice on me and blaming others... I care for u gals too but now....

I guess there's no more Rina in KGC... Goodbye...

xoxo,

Reena Turner